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What’s Going On

Hey everyone! I’d like to take this time to apologize for the lack of updates both here and on EsoTarot; I’ve been extremely busy of late, and actually haven’t gotten much done. However, I would like to update you all on what has been going on.

First and foremost, I’m back at university and almost taking a course overload. That alone has made getting work done difficult. One of the courses I am taking is an intensive independent study on the evolution of Persian culture from the Sasanian Empire until the Ghaznavids and the Persian Revival, so much of my spare time has gone into research.

Secondly, I will be acting as a Municipal Liaison for NaNoWriMo this year, so I’ve been busy plotting write-ins and other things as well. What little time I have to spare after ML-preparation and university goes either to sleeping, eating, or Astral Tide. As such, I haven’t had time to continue my study of astrology overly much, or edit The Libel of Blood often, either.

However, I have managed to edit some (I have edited through chapter 20/46 at this point), and I have written two pieces of prose poetry that will hopefully be made available to read soon (called “The Playground” and “Lord of Carrion”). I am also (slowly, in between and during classes) working on a third piece of flash fiction called for the moment “Nightmare Fleet.” It is based somewhat on the end of The Libel of Blood, albeit with a very different twist.

Unfortunately, amidst all of this busy stuff, I have become rather stressed. As such, I am making it my goal to, over the next week, try to edit as much of The Libel of Blood as I can before NaNo starts, and then use the time left over to get ahead on my independent study research, freeing up more time for me in November. After November I will hopefully have a lot more free time. I’ll also try to keep you all updates; if you’re not already, following me on Twitter and liking me on Facebook will greatly assist you in stalking me. Adios for now!

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Posted by on October 5, 2011 in Personal, Writing


Astral Tide

The year is 2286, and everything is gone.

Greetings! Hopefully I am back after my long hiatus. After settling in again at university, I’m finally able to find some time to write, and I’m back to editing The Libel of Blood and writing Tal’kan – which may be split into two books (more to come on this later). I also haven’t forgotten about Dark Aeons, but that’s currently on a backburner.

What I have come to tell you about is my latest project – Astral Tide. The project is a collaborative effort between myself and two other authors – R. A. Wesselhoeft and S. Huang (we may be adding a fourth in the future, but we’ll see). It takes the format of a series of short, maximum-2,000 word stories – three a week, one from each author. Each author has taken control of one ship of five in the last fleet of the known universe, following a terrible cataclysm that caused all of reality to collapse and begin to merge with another dimension. Each ship will have its own subplots, but also will be tied together by fleet-wide events and a shared world. It will be updated Wednesdays, Fridays, and Sundays – and it’s completely, 100% free. Did I mention that it’s free? Go get started now – the Prologue is up, and my first story, “Born to the Fire,” is released September 14th! Visit us here.

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Posted by on September 12, 2011 in Personal, Writing


EsoTarot Blog

I was thinking – after getting my Internet back, finally, after a royal fiasco on the part of Comcast and DigSafe, I decided that too much of this blog was getting clogged up with Tarot Challenge posts – which most of you probably don’t care about. So I decided, in my infinite wisdom, to create a separate blog to cover all of my esoteric interests – visit EsoTarot if you’re interested! The Tarot Challenge will continue there, as well as my soon-to-begin Astrology Challenge! I transferred most of my Tarot-related posts there, so you may see some repeats. This blog will now be reserved for everything else. Enjoy!

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Posted by on June 1, 2011 in Personal


Discworld, Kansas, Torchwood, Summer and Writing!

I’ve been a bad writer. I was freed of my university obligations on Tuesday May 3rd, was busy Wednesday with other things, and then Thursday was spent packing. I moved out of my dorm back home Friday afternoon, and then that evening was at a KANSAS concert in a very impressive Casino. The concert itself was spectacular, and I enjoyed myself a lot. On Saturday I went to the beach and stayed the night in a house, and unfortunately was dragged into doing things that were not writing. I got back home today, and as it was Mother’s Day, was spending time with my mother instead of writing. As such, very little writing has been achieved, but some progress has been made! Now that I am on summer break, I should have a lot more time to devote to writing – I have failed to finish the first draft by the end of this week, but shouldn’t have any problems doing it this week. I hope.

As I was packing and performing other tasks, I have been watching Torchwood – I’m now on Season 2, about halfway through it. The first episode was rubbish, but it got better. I hate most of the cast, but love Captain Jack; I watch it for him. Otherwise, I’m not a huge fan.

The last big piece of news is that in small increments (during classes, between them, during breaks in being social), I have been developing my own roleplaying system! I recently located the Steve Jackson Games Discworld roleplaying book, and have been reading it. Unfortunately, the mechanics are based on GURPS (Generic Universal Role Playing System), which I abhor. So, I threw that system out the window and developed my own specifically for Discworld, with stats for Morphic Fields and Magic and other such fun things. I just finished the first draft with a list of classes and spells. In a week or two I hope to test the rules out on a group of unsuspecting roleplayers! The ruleset I drafted is like a mix between WFRP (Warhammer Fantasy Roleplay) and Paranoia. It should be fun!

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Posted by on May 9, 2011 in Personal, Watchings, Writing


Writing Update

Sorry for the lack of writing updates, but life has been really, really, hectic. I am currently writing Chapter 44 of what I hope will 45 Chapters, a Prologue, and an Epilogue. I’ve been two chapters away from finishing for a long time, but the tail end of the book (which all takes place within two or three days of each other) is growing longer and longer and using up more and more chapters. Hopefully I’ll be able to make the final push through by the end of May, but don’t count on it.

Why? University work is hitting me in the face. Papers, research projects, entire books to read in a matter of days – I barely have any time to myself anymore. On top of that, I have developed a very bad case of insomnia, so am exhausted all the time and can’t concentrate on writing even when I do have free time; instead I’ve been watching Babylon 5. Season 4 is also fantastic.

But I do have some writing to show you! The Libel of Blood is currently at 374 pages. And recently, Psy just returned again, for the last time:


“We have no news from other worlds, but I’d imagine that Earth is faring better than most.” A faint smile touched Majias’ lips. “Another interesting thing I might point out to you. There is a ship leaving from a hangar located in this very building – two floors down those stairs over there and one room to the left – to go back up the battle above, to ensure that we continue to hold our own up there. It leaves in ten minutes. It was down here for restocking and changing the shifts of the crew. It contains twenty-seven strike craft on it, each one loaked with ship-destroyers. Four apiece. A ship like that in the hands of one blessed by the spirits of Xiallanen…”

I looked up at him sharply, for the first time truly paying attention. Go on

“…with a cause that is truly just and righteous, and with a certain individualistc streak, could perhaps make better use of those weapons than one less creative or less driven than a normal pilot. And you do have extensive experience with stowing away. It hurts us to see you suffer like this.” The timbre of Majias’ voice had changed. “I also have noticed a strange new mind entering the fray nearby – a powerful, slow-moving, revolting mind, bent on the domination and rewiring of lesser beings. It is very close, just behind the main bulk of the Horrere fleet. A few ship destroyers in the right place could end the problem once and for all.”

I stared into Majias’ eyes, and say that Majias did not stare back out at me. “We do care. I feel for you. We love you. I feel how it hurts. You can do what needs be done, for your most interesting race, and for those you may have lost. Goodbye now for good, Jakken Jalhalla Servidos.”

I knew then what I had to do. Why had I been chosen to be the receptacle of the attentions of the pilot spirits of the Xiallanen Passage? Did I not have a great fate in store? Could it not be possible that it was my destiny to destroy the Genesis Engine? And I had just been handed me the opportunity to avenge Derekk’s death and save humanity from certain destruction. Hopefully.

Majias started suddenly, and looked worriedly at himself. “Jak… what did I just tell you to do?” I stood up slowly, and smiled lukewarmly down at him.

“Exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.”


So there you have it! Let’s see if I can get anything else done before the semester ends…

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Posted by on April 15, 2011 in Personal, Watchings, Writing


B5, Haruhi, Ponies, CoC, Tarot, Uni, and Writing

In essence, a little bit of everything. I am sure you’ve noticed that my posts here have been few and far between; hopefully this post will explain what to expect from me in the near future.

First off, I haven’t had any significant time to write, and in order to work on longer pieces – such as TLOB – I need to devote at least an hour to it so that I can actually churn out good material. I just, as of late, haven’t had that time, for several reasons: a few weeks ago I had shingles, which made it impossible to concentrate on anything, and since I (mostly) recovered from that I  have then been swamped with work; next week alone I have 750 pages of reading and two papers, coming right after having to write three papers and do 200 pages of reading this week and my “vacation” the week before consisting of me writing a research paper. And then after all this goodness, final project and exam preparations begin. Oh joy.

So, until the end of the semester in early May, my writing will be limited – but hopefully will start coming again! I was originally aiming to finish the rough draft of TLOB by April, and then in April (during Script Frenzy’s time), was going to try to finish Dark Aeons – but I’ve given up on that. I’m still going to see if I can finish TLOB before the semester ends.

However, last night before I went to sleep I sat down and wrote another poem! It’s strange… it’s the titular poem of the planned collection Dark Aeons. For your wincing pleasure, here’s the first third(ish) of it:


In the beginning there was darkness
In the middle there was light
And at the end of endings there was eternal night

In the beginning there was darkness
Of utter midnight black
From the nothingness it came
To fill the void of light

It seeped into creation
And tainted life’s faint glow
A reminder of the nothingness
Come forth at the start of time

It hid in shadows and the night
Ever lurking, ever there
It watched from caverns and oceans deep
Ever watching; ever waiting

It darkened stars’ fiery birth
And led them into their own oblivion
Where they found their creation with open maws
Ever hungry, ever greedy

It told of destruction and ultimate end
But waited silently in the space between
Letting the song of stars flow through it
Adding their screams to the light


In addition to that, over spring “vacation” I had the chance to run two Call of Cthulhu scenarios and participate in three Corporation ones. Corporation, as Paranoia’s serious twin, is fun, but also has some leeway for humor. Which makes it rather different from Call of Cthulhu. The first scenario I ran, The Gate of Time, featuring the Hounds of Tindalos (read the story featuring them here – badly transcribed) went very well, and I had two players actually scared. The second one I ran, The Forest of Blood (which I will be basing a short story in Dark Aeons on) did not go so well; players were unfocused, joking, and missed a lot of vital clues, forcing me to improvise even more than usual, and I did not manage it well. After that experience, I decided that it is very important to have a table (not couches like we were using) around which to sit with minimal food and drink distractions. Also having serious roleplayers helps.

In terms of television shows I finished (before I was swamped, while still struck down with shingles), the anime The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya I found very thought-provoking; it was well done and has an original concept (and fun music). However, the eight episodes in season one that are a time loop and repeat almost exactly for eight episodes just made me want to cry. I confess, I skimmed those. But I finished eventually, and in the end, want more! I can’t wait for The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya to come out in English.

I also finished Season 1 of Babylon 5, and liked that a lot too – Londo Mollari and Ambassador G’Kar came out as my favorite characters; their antagonistic dualities just made the show for me. I’m going to miss Jeffrey Sinclair (and Michael O’Hare) in Season 2; lets see how Sheridan fares. I have also just begun watching (no making fun of me) My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, and I have found it to be wonderful. Go watch it now.

In terms of tarot, I’ve only had time to do three readings of late, but I hope to begin doing it more regularly again! I did one earlier today, and should have time for another tomorrow – I’m going to try a Yin-Yang spread using myself and the rest of the world as opposing sides and see what happens.

Also, starting tomorrow, I will be beginning the TAROT CHALLENGE. This will consist of a lot of posts, hopefully one every two or three days, going through each and every card of the tarot and putting down all of my thoughts on it. The order will be as follows:



Knight, Queen, Prince, Princess



Knight, Queen, Prince, Princess



Knight, Queen, Prince, Princess



Knight, Queen, Prince, Princess



Hopefully this will help my understanding of court cards a lot, which I’ve always had trouble with. But for now – let’s see if I can get any TLOB done!

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Posted by on March 24, 2011 in Personal, Watchings, Writing


Earthsea – The Terrible Mini-Series, and Update

So, shingles still hasn’t given me my life back yet, but *hopefully* the worst should be over today or tomorrow. Key word is hopefully – but I choose to trust the doctor. Then once I’m clear of one more paper, exam, and a busy weekend, back to writing I hope! I’m way behind at this point, so am moving my goal back to finish by the end of March. *crosses fingers* That way, in April I can do my secret challenge! I’ll tell you what that is if I can actually make it there.

But in my sickness, meanwhile, I decided to first try to watch Waking Life upon recommendation of a friend, and had to stop ten minutes in as the constantly shifting animation hurt my eyes. So I then watched Earthsea instead as I studied (or attempted to) for an exam. It is a Science Fiction channel version, and apparently (regrettably, I have not yet read the series myself) is very unfaithful to the author of the original books’ true intentions. I have a great respect for Ursula K. LeGuin, and feel bad that her books were demolished by the movie transfer. But, after watching the adaptation, the entire time I was thinking about how the women in the film are all portrayed as weaker, second halves to the men – from the evil, treacherous sister to Tenar herself. Their stories are secondary, and in the end, it is the men who are praised – not the women. Needless to say, this irritated me slightly.

Also, I felt really bad the whole time for Ged’s girlfriend back home. I wish they hadn’t just left her alone there. It was sad. And finally… I thought the cheesy lines in Star Wars episodes one through three were bad. They were nothing compared to this.

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Posted by on March 8, 2011 in Personal, Watchings


So, Why No Progress?

Sorry guys, but there is a reason for my lack of any progress! My expected deadline is now out the window – and why? Because chickenpox decided to come back into my life. Yup, that’s right – I have shingles. In case you are unfamiliar with the disease, educate yourself here. The translation of the Norwegian word (as told to me by a Norwegian acquaintance) accurately portrays the whole thing: “hellfire.” I have blistering, almost oozing rashes along my left hip, making it painful to walk or move sometimes. The pain is really, really bad, to the point of which I can’t concentrate on writing. At all. If you ever get it, you will understand what I’m talking about. I’m writing this in one of my more lucid moments, free of my five pills a day, twice-a-day lotion, and prescription painkillers.

So, instead of writing (I honestly have been trying – but it doesn’t come out well), I’ve been watching television. More specifically, two shows – Babylon 5 and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. I really like both, though having half of the actors change after the pilot in Babylon 5 was unsettling. I love the characters and complex plots a lot though; it’s one of the few shows where I actually cannot pick a favorite character. I’m about halfway through Season One now. I also just finished Season One of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, and though not nearly at the level of Babylon 5, made me think a lot – it is a very philosophical show. It’s interesting, as I used to hate anime – and now I actually like it. Strange.

Anyway, hopefully I’ll be better in a week or two, and will get to writing then. But until then, check out my new Amazon Author Page. Until then, I have to survive another week of school. Wish me luck!

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Posted by on March 6, 2011 in Personal, Watchings, Writing


Updates Soon I Hope!

Things have been going slowly – as you no doubt could guess from my lack of posts. I got a lot done – more than I had expected – during my long weekend, but since then I’ve been loaded with exams and papers, and I have another twoish weeks of these before I am free – and then I have even more to do. I have reached the busy part of the semester.

Expect a longer post hopefully around Wednesday or Thursday detailing TLOB progress, as well as thoughts on two new Tarot spreads, and maybe even some “plans” for April. Still aiming for a mid-March rough draft finish date!

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Posted by on February 28, 2011 in Personal, Writing


Done With Who… For Now.

Both good and bad news – I have finally completely caught up with Doctor Who.  Matt Smith and Series Five are by far my favorite doctor/series, though Amy is only my second favorite companion – Donna is still my favorite. But now that this distraction is done with – hopefully I can return to writing in earnest, trying to start with this weekend! I’m also still waiting on TLOC to arrive (the proof, rather), which should be soon – hoping for a release time of a few days! Let’s keep our fingers crossed…

I’ve also started reading Pratchett’s Equal Rites – I like it a lot so far! Better and more composed than The Light Fantastic, that’s for sure! Following that book, I plan to read the newest Vorkosigan novel – Cryoburn. Looks very promising!

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Posted by on January 28, 2011 in Personal, Readings, Watchings