Daily Archives: March 12, 2012

House of Leaves

It is far too early in the morning as I am writing this, but I cannot sleep. I will try again after writing this.

I just read Mark D. Danielewski’s House of Leaves, and was profoundly affected by it, more so than any other thing I have read in my life. I don’t even want the book near me. It terrified the daylights out of me, and struck a nerve deep within my heart that I didn’t even know existed.

I must confess, I didn’t read the entire thing. I doubt anyone has. It is ergonic literature, meaning that part of the art form of the book is in its layout, with text spaced oddly, upside down, and sometimes illegible. I was forced to read this book for my Monster Theory class, and so did not feel compelled to read the entire thing, so I skipped most of the notes on Johnny Truant’s story, skipped the appendices entirely, and focused almost entirely on the focus of the piece, the Navidson Record. Maybe if I had read the other parts of the story, the impact of the book would have been mitigated (in some instances, the fear was definitely lessened by the odd manner of storytelling; in other cases, it greatly increased), but somehow I doubt it.

The book is about many things, and like the titular House, everyone probably sees it differently. To me, it was about the horror residing within the unknown within ourselves. The House was a very deep allegory to the subconscious and the hidden depths within us to me. I am writing a paper on the Theban Sphinx for that same class, so perhaps my interpretations of her as the guardian of forbidden Human knowledge about themselves is affecting my interpretation, but there seemed to me to be many parallels between the Sphinx and the House; the Sphinx asked a riddle about the nature of man, and the House itself was a riddle about the nature of self.

When confronted with the House – and therefore the question of who you really are and what you mean – there are different reactions. Most notably, Navidson himself perseveres and confronts himself, and his wife does the same, albeit less blatantly, and together they reach some form of closure. Holloway, the hired explorer, on the other hand, goes mad and runs away from himself after shooting (accidentally) his assistants, and takes his own life in the end, unable to deal with himself.

The yawning empty abyss of the house, its labyrinthine, ever-changing corridors, and the sense of being lost within one’s own self and one’s own world hit me on a level I cannot describe. Call me a wimp, a coward, or whatever you will, but that book did something profound to me, and I am terrified of the abyss that it opened before me.

If you want to, give it a try, but don’t say I didn’t warn you. I don’t want to be near even the physical copy of that book because of what it recalls in me. It is sitting way outside my room right now. I don’t want to go near it.

I am just not ready to face myself.


“The Woodsman” Revisited and #Writemotivation (Lack of) Progress

So, I was looking over my “finished” first draft of “The Woodsman,” and realized that, frankly, it’s awful. I did not enjoy reading it. The first half of it was very good, I thought, and did a good job of developing the characters who will die later in the story. The second half, however, because it was a little bit rushed, was choppy, didn’t flow, and came out of nowhere.

As such, my main project for the months of April and May will be, I think, to revisit this story and fix the second half. I have outlined it and given it a much better shape than it has now, I think; and hopefully it will be scarier. I’m excited to look it over, so next month be prepared for updates on it!

Also, I wish to take this time to address #writemotivation. I am failing utterly at the moment, due to pressures (I can’t write under stress) and university work hitting me really hard in the last week before spring break. I hope to get a lot of writing done over said spring break, but for now consider me behind; I’ve hardly written anything at all in Tal’kan. Here’s to catching up soon, though!

Now, to catch some much-needed sleep!


Posted by on March 12, 2012 in Writing