Tarot

I have, as of a week or so ago, picked up a new hobby, as I have mentioned if you’ve followed my Twitterings at all – Tarot. Yes, finding the meaning of life in a deck of cards. I was semi-skeptical when I began, but no more! I now can see their usefulness (thanks in part to the help of my tarot-sensei), but primarily through meditative purposes – not through divinatory ones.

Most of what I thought I knew about the cards has been thrown out the window – I thought it was a load of rubbish, cards used purely to predict the future. After doing research and a few readings, I saw that this was not what they were about at all; rather, their greatest purpose was in allowing me to see and think about the world – and through readings, I could apply these new thoughts to specific situations. Of course, it’s still neat to use them for divination – but that is not their primary purpose, contrary as to how they are usually portrayed.

I used Joan Bunning’s Learning the Tarot book and website to teach myself initially, using the popular Ride-Waite deck, but am now reading Aleister Crowley’s Book of Thoth and have obtained a Thoth tarot deck, designed by the man himself. The Thoth deck is constructed on more Kabbalistic principles (the flow of divine energy and metaphysics) than the Rider-Waite one, while the Rider-Waite (it’s a shame that Pamela Coleman Smith, the illustrator, doesn’t get recognition in the deck’s name) is more based on aspects of life and the life-course. I have not yet tried reading with the Thoth deck, as I want to finish Crowley’s book first so I can understand his thoughts behind them. I do very much like Lady Frieda Harris’ artwork on most of them though – interesting that the Rider-Waite deck chose to use people on most of the cards that the Thoth deck doesn’t – perhaps making it easier for “laymen” to interpret? Who knows – but at least looking over the images, the symbolism of the Thoth deck seems to me to be more potent, even if the cards I have themselves are smaller, which I do not like.

Currently, my only used spreads consist of the one-card philosophical one (take a card and ponder its applications for that day), the three-card diviniative/contemplative/simplified one (lay out three cards: past->present->future), and my own version of the Celtic Cross:  the central cross (the “circle”) is the same as normally interpreted, then the vertical parts representing levels of consciousness (the top is conscious thought or present concerns, while the bottom is unconscious thought or the cause of the central condition), while the horizontal cross represents the receding (left) influences and the incoming (right) influences in your life. In both cases, the central circle provides a link between the two sides; horizontally, it represents the two large aspects of the present, and vertically it represents how we we feel about the situation to some extent. The bottom of the staff I see as how you see yourself or the situation, the next card as how others see it/you, the third card represents a possible solution/thing to think about with regards to the situation, and the top of the staff is the prophetic card: what will most likely happen.

Of course, I don’t lend the cards prophetic abilities, but rather see them as giving a sort of advice: not a “this will happen,” but a “think about these thingsif this does happen.” It certainly has made me think! Following my “mastery” of the Thoth deck, I plan on moving onto different spreads, such as Bumming’s suggested Yin-Yang conflict resolution spread (seems useful) and then some of Raven’s spreads. Then, after that, I’ll work on spreads of my own!

I also recently, at the suggestion of my mother, decided to throw a spread to look at political problems. Now, you’ll have to forgive my interpretations’ possible lack of accuracy in terms of factual events (also note that my political beliefs are not expressed in these cards), but using a ten-card Celtic Cross spread asking about the current uprisings in Egypt, I achieved the following (using Rider-Waite[-Smith]):

Root CauseTemperance [reversed] – Indicating to me that the problem was an inability to calmly go about affairs – possibly overreacting protestors or a government failing to use moderation to govern the country, being too hard upon its people.

Contributing FactorNine of Pentacles [reversed] – The presence of two blocked cards at the heart of the matter seems to be to suggest frustrations and unrealized potential on both sides. This card seems to me to suggest that people may be working hard, but aren’t getting the rewards they wanted (the Nine of Pentacles, to me, indicates the process of hard work leading to a reward and a time of rest and contemplation). Perhaps frustration that the government won’t step down after the hard rioting of the protesters (or perhaps that the government has been taking the earned rewards of the people), or frustration that the rioters won’t  give up on the part of the government? Combined with the reversed Temperance, perhaps this is what is causing the lack of moderation to be present?

Receding InfluenceSeven of Swords – Depicting a man fleeing with what appear to be stolen swords, this card to me indicates that the time of flight and theft is over – the time of the government taking from the people is over, the time of hidden atrocities and dinhonours is over, and the time of the people fleeing from these problems is over.

Approaching InfluenceThe Hierophant – The second Major Arcana to appear (Temperance being the other) – after the events of this riot are over, perhaps Egypt will be inducted into some formal new society, or will have learned a valuable lesson? If the government wins, a lesson might be learned about the power and will of the people, and if the rioters win, perhaps this indicates that the new government will be accepted into the global community.

Conscious InfluenceSeven of Cups – Choices. Some degree of confusion. Fantasy. Perhaps indicating, in this position’s role of what is superficial, that the government is either clinging to a fantasy of being able to hold power, or that the rioters are holding on to a fantasy of overthrowing the government. My own thoughts on the matter cause my opinion to lean more towards the former than the latter. Perhaps this also indicates that the situation is not as clear-cut as everyone in the West makes it out to be: the government either falls or doesn’t. Perhaps the government has realized this, as can be seen by their efforts at talks. There may be other choices available to end the conflict; governmental integration, concessions made by both sides, and doubtless other things I have not thought of. Confusion might come from the thoughts of the Western powers – Egypt is an ally, and while Mubarak’s regime was brutal and a democracy fits in better with their ideals, they are afraid of losing an ally and the possibility of a radical Islamic government.

Unconscious InfluenceJudgement – The third major Arcana to appear in the cross – indicating that this uprising might have large consequences, such as we have seen hinted at in Yemen, Syria, and Jordan. Beneath the surface, some form of rebirth is at hand/is ongoing – Egypt will not emerge unchanged from this struggle. Issues of identity torment the nation, and perhaps on a deeper level, the nation is attempting cleanse itself of the oppression of the Mubarak regime and be reborn “free of sin.” Perhaps this need to remake the nation and start again also lies at the heart of this unrest.

For the next two cards, I have modified the bottom two cards of the Staff slightly – the bottom card now represents the government’s view (being at the “base” of the country), and the the one above the protesters’.

Government ViewThree of Pentacles [reversed] – Normally this card represents teamwork; working together to meet some goal. Blocked, this seems to mean that this is not longer working – perhaps the government feels its allies are forsaking them (such as the Western governments), or that some unwritten agreement with the people to keep the country running is floundering.

Protesters’ ViewSix of Pentacles [reversed] – Again, the earthy, practical nature of the Pentacles surfaces with regards to the viewpoints of the opposing sides. This struggle perhaps isn’t about abstract ideals; it’s a practical matter for both sides: the government wants to keep its power, and the people want to have better lives. The second reversed card also implies lots of frustration. But looking at the actual six itself, this seems to me that the protesters view this struggle as the government failing to balance the haves and have-nots; the Six of Pentacles for me has always been a problematic card, especially reversed. To me, this card normally represents the inequality in the world, but in the Ride-Waite deck, the presence of the man distributing some of his wealth to the less well-off can also indicate some sense of balancing the inequalities – perhaps the people feel that the government has failed to this (the reversal), and so want to do this form themselves.

Possible Solution: Three of Wands – To me, this card represents striking out into new territory, thinking ahead, and the qualities of leadership. Something to keep in mind for both sides, then, is that strong leadership will be needed – and looking at Mubarak’s current precarious position, it may very well not be him. In terms of exploration, perhaps a new, untested agreement will have to be put in place to resolve the conflict. The thinking ahead bit speaks for itself, really – if this is uprising is going to end well for everyone, everyone will have to be thinking ahead. Mubarak, very aged at 82, might not be thinking this way – perhaps this card indicates that he should, and begin thinking about Egypt after his death/resignation. In the same vein, the protesters should think about the long-term effects of their actions and make sure that they know what they’re doing – and should come up with a plan for what to do after Mubarak resigns; something I have not heard much talk about.

Likely Outcome: Justice – The fourth major Arcana to appear. Momentous events indeed. This card indicates, to me, that weighty decisions will be made, karma will come into effect, and order will be restored. This could quickly be seen as Mubarak will get what he had coming for his oppression and will fall – but The Tower would indicate this to me more than Justice. After all, despite oppression, Mubarak did hold the country together and was a “bastion of peace” in the Middle East, and a representative of moderate values (look back to the reversed Temperance here – maybe these values were no longer holding up?). To me, this just indicates that the situation will turn out well and everyone will get what it is they deserve – what exactly that is, I cannot say.

Though all four suits (Wands, Cups, Swords, and Pentacles) were present, the Pentacle dominated. In the end, the unrest in Egypt might not be so much about ideologies and grand ideas, but rather about simple and down-to-earth needs and desires: the conflict of power and satisfaction, of oppressor and oppressed.

Equal Rites Review

So I just finished Terry Pratchett’s Equal Rites, and was both impressed and disappointed – a strange combination. In the end, upon careful consideration, I liked it more than I did The Colour of Magic, but less so than The Light Fantastic, Hogfather, and of course The Amazing Maurice and his Educated Rodents. The title, of course, was very clever – I approved. So was the premise of the book – comparing witchcraft against wizardry as way of examining the masculine versus the feminine.

Of course, partly in a reflection of our own society, the two views were always opposing each other, and the men dominated – wizardry was more respected, and the wizards at Unseen University looked down upon witches. The manifestation of wizardry was also more “intellectual” (which has for longer been accessible to males due to restrictions on female admittance into universities), whereas witchcraft was more “practical” – calling to mind the image of a midwife.

Wizardry also was much more about manifesting power and calling things into being – which could be viewed as possibly seeing the creator as male, which is a traditional view held by many about our own possible creator – than witchcraft, which was primarily focused on working with what was already there. In other words, the men make things and the women use them; the men go out and accomplish things that women can use later for themselves.

Yet at the same time, wizards were less willing to help others, and mocked others with less ability – take Treatle’s admitting Esk into the University for (what seemed to me to be) the purpose of being laughed at by the other wizards – it doesn’t seem like the most kind thing to do. Witches made their living helping others.

Yet, both sides also displayed ignorance of the other and abhorred the other – wizards hated witchcraft, and witches (exemplified by Granny Weatherwax) hate wizardry. Wizards use too much math, and witches are useless – or so it is said.

The most striking thing to me – and the major reason I was disappointed in the end – was that Pratchett didn’t portray wizardry and witchcraft as equal. He held a philosophy of the two as separate and different ways of magic – by proxy extending this into the male and female as well. This is fine in and of itself, but if he was trying to be “separate but equal” (which we all know doesn’t work), then he failed. The wizards’ magic was portrayed as being more powerful; I was shocked and disappointed when Granny began teaching Esk how to use witchcraft, and most of what she taught her was not actually magic, but in fact was herbology and faking it (“headology”). To me, this just seemed to enforce the gender power disparity here – and then we of course have the fact that the story is the woman trying to break into the man’s world – but cast in such a light as to make it seem as if the man’s world (wizardry) was more desirable – and in fact, it seems to be. It may be covered up by the use of destiny and fate, but the fact that Granny and Esk eventually decided she should focus on wizardry rather than witchcraft to me just indicates that the gender relations are being reinforced.

The only indications of there being less gender disparity is the power dynamics between Arch-chancellor Cutangle and Granny Weatherwax – Cutangle is foppish and cowardly (reminds me of Rincewind in many ways), whereas Granny is forceful and active – and the duel between the pair of them, where it is hinted at that Granny is more powerful magically than Cutangle.

But in the end, the traits they exemplify reinforce their gender disparities – the realm of philosophical thought is dominated by Cutangle, and the realm of reason and practicality is dominated by Granny – the men do the creating and the women the working. Sound familiar?

Of course, in the end, this is just a fantasy book and maybe I’m overthinking it – besides, as it is a medievalesque fantasy novel, the gender differences should probably exist. What I object to is the portrayal of this difference more than anything. There are also other things he pokes fun at – sexuality (in the innuendos made above Esk’s head) and the stereotypes of witches and wizards, but in the end, as indicated by the title, it all comes down to gender (also interesting to note that the witches trademark is a broom – a useful tool for housework – while the wizard’s is a staff – useful for travelling and expanding one’s knowledge through experience. Also interesting that the idea of witch and wizard hats is similar).

On a parting note, I am finding the magic of Discworld inconsistent – it seems to have worked differently in each of the books I’ve read. In The Colour of Magic and The Light Fantastic, wizard magic seems much harder to cast than in the other books – but perhaps this will become clear.

Next on my list of things to read, in this order:

The Book of Thoth (Aleister Crowley)

Cryoburn (Lois McMaster Bujold)

Sourcery (Terry Pratchett)

Mort (Terry Pratchett)

Reaper Man (Terry Pratchett)

-Some H. P. Lovecraft short stories I haven’t read interspersed in there too.

Ta-ta for now!

The Light of Civilization is Available For Purchase!

Not much else to say here, really – I finally approved the proof copy of TLOC – here’s hoping I caught all of the typos and mistakes! Likely not, but oh well! Now that it’s out, you can buy it currently on the CreateSpace eStore – go do it now! I apologize for the increased price over book one, but the total final page length including appendices and preview came out to 348 pages – about 100 more than the first book. Plus, this one is better, and even more work went into it!

So, the book is available on CreateSpace now… and here’s a tentative schedule of subsequent releases:

-CreateSpace: Now

-Lulu eBook (PDF): About Monday, February 7

-Amazon: About Monday, February 14

-Barnes and Noble NookBook: About Monday, February 21

I’m also looking into possibly moving onto the Kindle as well – we shall conquer! Again my thanks to Michael Ireland (Chief Editor) and Sarah Kindler (Illustrator) for getting this one off the ground!

A Fictional Tarot Reading

My tarot-learning is progressing well, I think – I hope to at some point this week make a post dedicated to my thoughts on it completely. Additionally, inspired by my new hobby, I decided to include a tarot-reading scene in TLOB – which, by the way, is now at 210 pages.  I was originally going to give Derekk a three-card reading and Jak a full Celtic cross one, but after Derekk’s three-card reading used up as much space as it did, I decided to give them both three-card spreads. The first half of the scene (it spans a chapter division) is below:

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When the cards were shuffled and cut to the man’s liking, he had Derekk turn over the top three in a very certain way. Then he shot a look at me. “Right then, young man – you weren’t concentrating, were you.”

I sat straighter. “Of course I was! Don’t be silly,” I shot back. Derekk still seemed oblivious to my discomfort. The man was hypnotizing; I glanced nervously behind me, and thought I may have seen a shadow move.

“And I’m a sparrow.” His long, thin finger fell upon the card closest to me. “This card’s energies are at odds with the previous two – a shame, as that card represented the most likely future.”

Derekk sighed. “Does that mean we have to do it all over?”

The man looked thoughtful for a minute, then nodded. “Yes.”

I began to roll my eyes again, but Derekk’s look stopped me. He really wanted to do it. I resisted the urge to tell him that the cards were just pictures and any seeming divination that came from them were just a result of you projecting your mind onto them, and instead found myself apologizing for my lack of concentration.

We began again, and this time I concentrated – for Derekk. When the cards were laid out again and the man leaned back with satisfaction, Derekk smiled gratefully at me. I smiled back, then checked behind us again. Is someone standing at the corner?

“Ah, now look at your past, see here?” The man pointed at the card farthest from me. I shifted my attention to it. “The Devil. Ignorance, imprisonment – the will of chains. The hold of the Devil is receding from your life – perhaps letting you move forward?” The man stared intently at Derekk. “How are your parents?”

Derekk’s mouth twisted in a sad smile. “They never let me go – they want me to stay out of the ‘dangerous’ parts of the city, and try to micro-manage my life – except for some afternoons, when my therapist says I have to get some time away from them. But even then, they try to watch me – it took me forever to get my watchers off my back so I could come here.”

I could have hit him; telling a seedy fortune-teller in a back alley that one’s rich and noble parents had no way of knowing where he was not the best of ideas. The man grinned slightly. “It’s always the same story.” Liar. “But their influence is receding, as I said – you shall soon be free of those chains.”

Derekk brightened up. “Really?”

The man nodded sagely. “Really. Now, onto the present.” He turned our attention to the next card, then, showing a man and a women, each holding a cup, beneath a caduceus and winged lion’s head . “The reversed two of cups – companionship. The lesser version of the Lovers.” He stroked a wispy goatee that I would have sworn had not been there a second ago. “Normally, this card signifies companionship, truce, bonding – but its energy is not free to flow. It has become blocked by something.” He smiled. “The energy of romance is there, but to free it, something must be done.” Winking, the man turned over another card and placed it above the two, closer to him. “I’ll give you a fourth card free of charge.”

“Thank you!” Derekk sad before he could stop himself. I half-smiled, and again glanced behind me. Nothing that time.

“No problem,” the man said patiently. “The Fool – in this case, urging you to be spontaneous, and start a new journey – likely with this person that charges your romantic energy.” He smiled sidelong at me, and I glared again. “To unblock the energy of the two of cups, then, you must have faith that things will all turn out alright and embrace spontaneity. Perhaps initiate the first kiss soon.” I would like that, I thought to myself, carefully avoiding Derekk’s gaze, though I felt his eyes glance over at me.

“Perhaps the imminent release of the chains of your parents will free you to take that first step into a new world with your new love, and allow the energies of romance and companionship to begin.” I could feel Derekk smiling, and it made me glad.

“Now, let’s look at the last card – the future. The outcome.” The man smiled warmly, and I was again surprised at how genuine it felt. “The ten of cups. Emotion and powerful forces govern your life, young man – only Major Arcana and Cups, the suit of emotions, found their way here. But this card signifies joy and family – a good future for you and your new lover, I think. Good tidings, I hope.”

Derekk was grinning now, and I was forced to smile a little as well. That did sound good. “It looks like your new lover will be your permanent partner once you have freed yourself from the chains your parents placed upon you,” the man said.

Derekk thought a moment. “But… the ten of cups signifies family?” The man nodded. “But I’m gay – how am I supposed to have a family?” I had often wondered the same thing about myself.

The tarot man winked. “There’ll always be a way.” He scooped up the cards and shuffled them back into his deck. “Watch out for those large forces, though – they can be rather unpredictable. And there are large forces in your life.”

The man turned his attention to me and took me in. I began to stand – I had no intention of having my fortune read. “You, young man, have the feelings of power about you,” said the card reader. He had stopped shuffling, and leaned forward intently. “I would be honored to read your fortune – and I’ll do it for no charge. A full Celtic Cross.”

I shook my head. “No, I think I’m goo-”

“Then just three cards, like your friend here.” He placed an odd emphasis on the word “friend,” causing both Derekk and myself to blush. We are just friends right now, I reminded myself.

“Come on, Jak – it’s fun!” Derekk said, eyes shining.

I shook my head and began to turn away. “No, I’m good – come on, Derekk, let’s-”

Something pinned my hand to the table. I turned around to see the tarot man’s bone-cane lying across the back of my hand. He smiled at me, and I caught what may have been a hint of malice in that one. “No, Jak – I insist.”

Done With Who… For Now.

Both good and bad news – I have finally completely caught up with Doctor Who.  Matt Smith and Series Five are by far my favorite doctor/series, though Amy is only my second favorite companion – Donna is still my favorite. But now that this distraction is done with – hopefully I can return to writing in earnest, trying to start with this weekend! I’m also still waiting on TLOC to arrive (the proof, rather), which should be soon – hoping for a release time of a few days! Let’s keep our fingers crossed…

I’ve also started reading Pratchett’s Equal Rites – I like it a lot so far! Better and more composed than The Light Fantastic, that’s for sure! Following that book, I plan to read the newest Vorkosigan novel – Cryoburn. Looks very promising!

An Unfortunate Delay…

I bring black tidings – I just received the proof copy of TLOC, and unfortunately, it had a formatting error – essentially, I made a mistake. Due to this, I was forced to reformat it and resubmit it for publication. As such, the book’s publishing is again being delayed – my apologies. Hopefully I’ll have the revised proof in my hands at the end of this week, or Monday next week – so aiming for a revised release date of early next week at the latest. Again my apologies.

I also have a few words to say about Red Dwarf – it started out as a fantastic comedy spoofing science fiction, and then, in season six, suddenly plummeted in quality. They took on a “monster of the week” format, and stopped focusing on the characters themselves – and lost the titular ship itself! Most disappointing – I don’t know if I can finish the series after that.

Anyway, just one more week until release! We can make it!

TLOC, Pratchett, and University, Oh My!

Well, finally after several delays and the CreateSpace team (who are marvelous, by the way) were done being nitpicky about formatting, TLOC is on its way! Well, the proof copy is at least – hopefully when I get it it will be free of errors, and I can put it on CreateSpace late next week! After that, it should go up on Amazon two weeks later. I am not sure yet when it will be released on Lulu and the B&N Nook. Likely after it comes out on Amazon, though it might be released on the Nook earlier.

But that aside, TLOB is making slow progress! Finally, for the first time, the game of spissyx – the bastardized chess that Jak played in TLOS and that the game “Juxo” in TLOC was similar to – is explained! Partially, at least, as Jak shows his love interest, whose name is Derekk – gotta love the double “k’s” – how one plays. Currently I am in a slower segment – a sort of interregnum between the “action” – but in two or so more chapters I should be back in the middle of it! Unfortunately, progress is slow, as I just went back to university and am again readjusting.

On the note of university, I am finally leaving that suite that I hate and moving into an on-campus apartment! Hopefully the writing – and living – environment there will be better. Plus I’ll have the room all to myself! I hope my writing speed picks up… although my Statistics class might cut into that. My other classes all seem fun so far… except for possibly my Modern Middle East professor, who I don’t like. I like the course material, though.

And on a final note, I finished Pratchett’s The Light Fantastic! It was much, much, much better than The Colour of Magic. Infinitely better. Though the ending seemed rushed – still not Pratchett’s best. But now onto Equal Rites!

Finished TLOC!

Short update, as I’m tired – but I have finished editing The Light of Civilization in its entirety! I am currently finishing up the final Appendices and formatting it, and then we’ll be waiting on the cover art! Hoping for a release late this week or early next! I also found the greatest writing music for horror – and it works pretty well for science fiction, too – Nox Arcana. Dark atmospheric music. And even better, they have a whole Lovecraft-themed album. And now, goodnight!

Current Plans

Sorry again for the delay between posts, but I have been busy! Michael Ireland – now my sole editor – has finished his run-through of The Light of Civilization, and I am now going through his comments and editing – the final run-through for TLOC! I just hope that we catch most of the typos. One of the first things Mr. Ireland told me was to not slap the reader in the face with the backstory/lore in Chapter 1. So, as a result, I expanded the Prologue and cut down Chapters 1 and 2 significantly, making the slap in the face far less hard. Unfortunately, the plot requires one to know a few things right off the bat, so I apologize for the density of the first two chapters. It gets easier after that, I promise – and the action starts Chapter 3!

All-in-all, though, both my Chief Editor and I agree that this book is far better than the first – you can even see my writing improve as it goes along (less so now that it is edited, but the differences are still there)!

I have currently made my way through slightly less than a third of the edited copy – I shall be starting on Chapter 11 as soon as I finish this post. I am hoping to try to get through, in the next four or five hours, the next nine chapters – it won’t happen, but I can dream, can’t I?

I missed the before Christmas deadline by a lot, I know, but hopefully the quality will be worth it! In addition to all of this frantic editing, Ms. Kindler has continued work on the cover, and I have now a vague idea of what it will look like… and it will look amazing! If all goes according to plan (which it won’t), I hope to release the book late next week. I also have to write two more appendices (a glossary and an explanation of how time is organized), so the total number of appendices should be equal to six. If I counted right.

Enough about TLOCTLOB is still advancing slowly, though more quickly than before! Jak has met a second (more permanent) love interest, whose full name is currently tentatively Derekk Andrés San Paolo. Jak is in some pretty dire straits now…

And in other news, TLOS is now on the B&N Nook! The Books page has been reflected to show this. Go buy it now! My apologies for the poor formatting – B&N made it rather difficult to do.

I also finished another short story! It is called “The Horror in the Woods.” It is probably the worst yet of them, about what appears to be a serial killer lurking in the woods near the town of Arkheim, Maine (anyone get the reference)? It is a rather strange one. Below is an excerpt (yay!):

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Harney had always said that there was something in those woods; those dark, twisted woods past old man Jenkins’ cottage, across the stream, and through the ditch. We had played there as children; the ditch we had dubbed “Dead Man’s Gully,” as it was rumored that a dead man had once been found there. We played at being murderers and thugs every weekend, when our parents let us off of our rope. I was usually the dead man.

When I was in the seventh grade one of my erstwhile playmates, Ernesto Valdez, vanished without a trace. I was home ill on that fateful day, but the story was that Erich had dared him to go bring back a branch he had thrown deep into the thickest thicket. The woods were very thick, and that thicket was nigh impenetrable. It wasn’t too deep into the woods, but was far enough in to be out of sight, right at the spot where the trees grew closer together and became taller and gloomier. An aura of dread always hung over that place, and to this day I wonder what courageous folly prompted Valdez to make that fateful journey. There was a parting of the trees in the thicket, and he walked in – but never came out. Adults later turned the thicket inside and out, but no trace was ever again found of Ernesto Valdez. After that day, we stopped playing near the forest.

But some of us just couldn’t leave it alone. Tragedy again befell our community during my last year of high school. My former friend, Tommy Whitman, now the star player of the football team, dared George Pickman, a year our younger, to spend a night out in the woods in order to be admitted to his top-secret jock club. Whitman was eager to please and leapt at the opportunity, leaving that very same night, sneaking out his house with his sleeping bag under his arm. Pickman had always been overly rational; he always had said that there was nothing to be afraid of in the woods.

But something in there got him that night.

His skull was found in his sleeping bag. It bad been picked perfectly clean; it was immaculate, without a trace of any flesh to be found anywhere on it. But there were no bite marks on any surface of it, or any sign of trauma. It was just a skull, and the dental records and facial structure showed them to be his. No one knows where the rest of him went.

And no one has ever since dared venture into that wood…

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But for the future, the plans are like so:

-Finish Editing TLOC, release it.

-Finish TLOB, begin editing it, eventually release it.

-Work on more short stories!

-(Re)Begin work on People of the Storm. This will be a very long-term project. Don’t expect to see it out anytime soon.

-Begin working in Torrek’s Slumber, the next book in the Juxian Mythos, examining aspects of the two Elders Torrek and K’Shatryan.

So that’s the plan, roughly in that order! Let’s see if we can stick to it!

On the reading front, I just finished Pratchett’s The Colour of Magic. It was slightly disappointing – though considering it was Pratchett’s first Discworld novel, it is not surprising. It seemed very disjointed to me, and at times the plot was impossible to follow – let’s hope The Light Fantastic, which I am starting now, is better. Pratchett’s writing can be said to have, at the very least, improved drastically!

I also have had the pleasure of watching a Doctor Who episode that scared the living daylights out of me – “Blink.” Following that, I proceeded to watch “The Time of Angels” and “Flesh and Stone” from much later on as well. What do these have in common? Weeping Angels, the most creative and fascinating alien race I have ever seen visualized; beings that look like statues when you look at them, and can only move when no sentient being is looking at them. “Blink” especially was remarkably well done, and might cause me to lose a night’s sleep. It was very scary. If you haven’t seen it, I would recommend doing so – I am not a huge fan of Doctor Who myself, but “Blink” was amazing – and doesn’t even have much of the Doctor or his companion!

The last thing I have to say is a rant on Paranoia – I just played a game with nine players, and it was not nearly as fun as other sessions. Why? Two things: people made teams and people did not off each other with anything even remotely bearing a distant appearance to subtlety. It just turned into a slaughterfest, and nobody even tried to complete the mission. It ended with one player turning into a Black Hole at the end using  the polymorph ability. I didn’t even get to use all that I had planned out…

So next time we meet, I’ll be running two Call of Cthulhu scenarios instead – I personally like the system better, and hopefully it will calm them down. On that note, I also need to read some more Lovecraft…

But back to editing! Hopefully I’ll update this more regularly now! Ta-ta for now!

First Edit, Man in Amber Done

And now I’m back after finally finishing all of my finals – I have about a month off, so I’m hoping to get a lot of writing done now!

As of this morning at 4:12 AM, I finished my initial revisions of TLOC. It was interesting to see how my writing improved as the novel went on. This one really is a lot better than the first one – hugely so. Not to mention significantly longer. In terms of TLOC, right now I am waiting on feedback from Michael Ireland and Peter Merlin, my two volunteer editors. Once I get it back and edit in their comments, and then get the cover art from Sarah Kindler, I should be set to publish it! Unfortunately, due to me not factoring finals into my schedule, it won’t be released until January. Sorry!

On the other hand, TLOS will be released on Barnes and Noble’s nook by the end of December – possibly a day or two before Christmas if all goes according to plan! Makes a great re-gift.

Also finished now is “The Man in Amber,” the horror short story I had been working on before NaNoWriMo hit. I wrote it once, then rewrote it again as I was unhappy with it. I think it’s decent now, though, even if it is one of the shorter ones. Excerpt time!

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It is the ultimate nightmare, though few even can imagine its possibility. I am eternally surrounded by this terrible substance of amber, that which lets me breathe without me breathing, lets me see without closing my eyes, and lets me live without really living. I have not had any nutritional sustenance for the longest time – many millennia more than I can remember. But though I live still, I have lost many things in this imprisonment: I can no longer hear, nor taste, nor smell, nor feel anything. Only my sight remains, and even that is limited to what I can see directly in front of me, for I can no longer move any part of my body – I have not felt my heart beat since I awoke in my prison of amber, nor my lungs swell, nor my flesh tremble. My eyes can no longer flit back and forth, nor follow the movement of a pendulum, nor even fill with tears without the greatest of pain.

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So what’s going to happen now? While I wait for feedback, I am adding appendices (there should be three of them) to TLOC, and also finishing a second horror story – “The Horror in the Woods.” After that I will focus completely on The Libel of Blood, with hopes to get the rough draft done before I go back to school. Once that’s done and editing is in progress, I will finish “The Thing From the Peaks,” yet another horror story. Following that and after TLOB is released, I shall concentrate on finishing Dark Aeons and starting People of the Storm.

I feel that I should mention that H.P. Lovecraft’s ghost-written story for Hazel Heald, “The Horror in the Museum,” is a fantastic piece of work and well-worth reading.

Also look at the shiny new background!